My body is starting to like me

Well it’s been 3 weeks since I’ve stopped my methotrexate. I’m still feeling great! I was soo nervous that the Humira alone wasn’t going to work! So far so good! My psoriasis is also almost 100% gone. Just a few small spots on my scalp. Small spots that I can handle. Unlike my head being covered and me being embarrassed to even leave home because of the skin on my shoulders. I love modern medicine 😍

My body decided it didn’t want to be on my BC anymore. I was spotting for more than a month and then a week before my last pack I ended up starting so I just said to hell with it and didn’t finish my pack. If was gonna have a period anyway might as well just have it and get it over with. I just hate that it decided to start while I was down here in Indiana. I did get some ovulation strips online so I will be able to start tracking when we get home next week! One step closer!

My thyroid meds have been messing with me. My doctor upped my dose and the week I started the new dose I started to become dizzy and extremely light headed. All day long. It was horrible. I called him yesterday and he told me to go to the ER. However since we are out of state at the moment I didn’t want to have to worry about “out of network” bs so I didn’t go. They did call me back this morning and told me to only take half to see if that helps if it doesn’t they want me in the office first thing Monday morning. Hoping it gets worked out. I hate feeling like this. I’m also very moody and I can’t stop crying because I feel funny. Owen probably thinks I’m crazy. Little does he know, I kinda am 😜

Tonight is our last night here. I’m pretty excited to be going home. I miss my bed and my kitties, and I can’t wait to get Owen back on his normal schedule. It’s been a rough two weeks at bedtime.

Well the pool is calling my boys name. So I’m gonna take him down. Tonight we are going to explore a little bit.
Have a blessed Thursday!

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Been a while. 

Well. I finally went to all of my appointments. All of my doctors are on the same page, except for my rheumatologist. She’s been out of town on vacation so I’m waiting for her to call me back to see if she can get another med called in. I’ve been off my methotrexate for 2 weeks now and I’m happy to say that my Humira is working great. The only time I’m really sore is when I go to bed and right when I wake up. I’m sure it’s because my body is at rest. As long as I stay pain free throughout the day I’ll be just fine with taking some Advil before bed. My med list was drastically cut down. I went from having to take 15 a day to 5. Once I get my new script filled for my thyroid med that will reduce one pill and in two weeks when my OB told me to stop taking my BC that will be another. I’m so excited. I did get my metformin switched from 2 a day from my extend release. I’m kinda nervous about that. It made me extremely sick last time. However, I’ve been taking 500mg for the last 5 months so maybe my stomach will adjust to an extra 500 a day. Fingers crossed. 🤞🏻

My OB appointment went great! We discussed a great plan for the next couple months while we are waiting for my methotrexate to be completely gone from my body. We decided to stay in my BC for a couple more weeks and then once I’m done I will start tracking my cycles to see if I’m ovulating on my own. I will go back the first of september and if I do end up ovulating on my own we will be clear to start trying naturally! Yay! If not we will discuss further plans. She did say that because we conceived right away with Owen on the clomid that may be the direction we go towards again, and James and I are okay with that! Things are going great. No stress. No worries.

Now for the next two weeks Owen and I are spending time with James while he is out of town for work. We may be living in a hotel but hey, free breakfast and a swimming pool. I also get to have my family together and that’s all that matters.

Until next time 😍

The journey begins. 

So today I received my two thermometers in the mail so I can start temping. I have to wait at least 3 months before we even attempt to start trying due to taking my methotrexate for my PsA so I figured I can at least start temping to see if I am ovulating on my own and if I’m not at least I will have the three months of documentation to give my doctor to see what direction we will have go again. Praying I won’t have to do all of the crazy testing I had to do when we were trying to concive Owen. Not only were some pretty uncomfortable but they weren’t cheap. Im praying we can just try the metformin/clomid round again. At least I’ll know what to do.

I have appointments next week with my OB as well as my regular doctor to get them both on the same page. My rheumatologist is so booked that I am unable to see her until my scheduled 6month appointment that is in November! The nurse did tell me to keep calling back to see if there is any cancellations. I told her that I am wanting to get off my mtx due to wanting to expand our family and she did tell me since I am on Humira that I shouldn’t have any issues. She also said that she will talk my my Rheumatologist and if I had any issues or if she wanted to fit me in she will let me know. Which made me feel better.

I think I said yesterday that I took my last BC pill so hopefully my cycle starts soon so I can start tracking. My husband and I promised ourselves that we won’t get stressed out over this. We were blessed with such an amazing little boy already and if we were meant to have another baby it will happen.  We also decided that we won’t be telling anyone about anything. Just simply because we don’t want any opinions. The only person that knows is my sister and she will be the only one who will be up to date. She is our support.

Well that’s all for today.

Until next time 😘😘

One of those days…

So yesterday, my husband left for work out of town. Yes, he is only 3 hours away but it really stinks. We are unsure when he will be coming home. They are saying months. Thankfully he is able to come home every 2 weeks and Owen and I are able to go down and visit. We already have some things planned while we are down there and his hotel has a pool. Gotta look at the positive right? It’s really hard to explain to a 3 yr old that daddy isn’t coming home tonight and why he is only seeing him via video chat. Thankful for technology that’s for sure. Gotta love being the wife of a traveling robotic engineer 😜

So before he left we had the talk about expanding our family again. We aren’t actively trying at the moment due to my health but we did decide that I needed to get into the doctors to see what I have to do to get my body ready and make sure I am on the correct meds. I’m not sure if I’m ready to be off my methotrexate yet. Hopefully my rheumatologist has something else up her sleeve or maybe even my Humira will be enough to keep me from relapsing. It feels amazing to be able to walk, I’m not sure if I’m ready to give that up yet. Haha

I did take my last BC pill today. I’m curious if my cycles are going to continue to start on their own. After losing 20 pounds the have been on time. However due to the methotrexate my on and I decided it was best to be on it incase. Now that James is gone I’m pretty sure we don’t have to worry about it right now.

I have so much running through my mind. So many doctor appointments to make. So many life style changes I need to work on. I have lots of reading to do. Lots of research. PCOS can kick rocks. I will beat the odds. I’ve done it once and I will do it again. I may have a couple more obstacles in my way this time but I have an amazing team of doctors and lots of support from my husband. We will do this. We will win!

Maybe Baby?

It seems like everywhere I look and everyone I see is pregnant. I swear I’ve seen at least 10 gender reveals on social media this week. Seeing all these post are really starting to get to me. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy for everyone that are blessed to be growing their families but it also reminds me of the struggles I had to endure to be blessed with my son, and what I am going to have to go through to possibly try again for another. PCOS sucks. Infertility sucks. Being told you may not be able to have children hurts. All of the test and procedures before even trying can just kick rocks. On top of PCOS my psoriatic arthritis doesn’t help either. All of the medications to keep me sane and pain free also put a halt to baby making. Every time someone ask when we are going to have another I just want to lock myself in my room and cry under my blankets. My husband and I weren’t very vocal about everything we went through to conceive Owen. We knew it was going to be rough and we thought it was best to keep it to ourselves. Know one understands. Yes it’s our fault no one does, but it’s hard to talk about and now knowing that when we do decide to start trying again I have to not only go through everything again but also have to be free and clear of my PA meds. I have been in remission from PA for a year now. I have been pain free for a year now. How soon after stopping my meds will I start hurting again? Not being able to walk again. How long will it take us to conceive? Then another nine months of pregnancy. Will I nurse? For how long? All of these things I have to think about and strongly consider before we decide to add to our family. Am I ready? Is there anything I can do to make it easier? We will see.
No we are not going to start trying now, but I can start preparing my mind and body for when we are ready. Diet and exercise is a must and lots of calls and visits to the doctors. I will do this. I will be ready. We will be ready.
I know this is all over the place and I apologize. It’s just the way my brain flows and the thoughts come out.